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I went to a bbq party today.
I had fun I guess.

Inlove with Cody Simpsons's song ♡
Cody Simpson's Not Just You

I feel like my life is missing someone or something. I don't know what. And I thought that by going to the bbq I might meet someone. I just feel I don't know like you know the feeling that you know that you have all your friends and stuff but you just feel cold and alone and you don't know what to do. Yeah, I'm having that feeling.

This is kinda like my journal. And I have no idea why other people are reading this. LOL.

So I tried to talk to Afif the other day. I know! I do not like him that way anymore. Totally over him I just want to be friends with him again. I don't get why he doesn't want to. It's so different here, that I feel weird telling my friends here about boys that I like. Cause wheneveer I tell MeiLing stuff I don't feel shy like you knoww...

Met a few boys today. Well, I'm always the awkward one out :) So yay to that!

I'm known as the Girl with the White Specks

Fat Leg and White Specks and the Guitar

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference.


I love this quote so much. Unfortunately I don't know who wrote it or say it. 

Afraid to like

Some times on facebook, you know how you would like to freaking stare at this one particular picture where it's got a person you loveD before. 
And you want to just like the picture, but no one else has liked it yet. 


So is it wrong to like it first when people clearly know that I have feelings for both of them. I still do. I'm gonna admit I still have feelings for these people. You all know I have enough love for all the ants in the world. Well, not ants but you get what I mean right???


When I like someone, I always feel that I will never be able to get him or her (JUST JOKING, Im not a lesbian), because I know that there will be other girls who are prettier and smarter and well, you know LOOKS MATTERS. Don't bullshit me about saying it's counts in the inside. That is just crap. I mean well it also does counts in the inside. But Looks Matters tooo.


Yes, I do find myself cute sometimes (perasan). BUT COME ON, there are like so many many more other girls prettier than me. When I like a guy and I just don't know. Well, I guess I'm just thinking too much. And I don't know. I might just stop liking guys and start liking girls. Psssshhhh!!!! LIKE THAT WOULD EVER HAPPEN. I don't know, Im in a girls school. and and . . .

I really study my butt out.

I can't believe this, but I actually studied and I studied till my brain hurt.

Drank Bitter Coffee and Stared At Cute Asian Boys. :)

I'm having my english test tomorrow. Wish me luck.

New Layout

What do you guys think of the new background??

Good ??

Stupid

I just realize that I'm a really really really extreamly stupid person.

I know absolutely nothing.

Absolute NOTHING!!

How stupid can a person be???

I think I'll probably fail everything. 

The only things I know how to do:

• Sleep
• Eat
• Watch TV
• Computer

The end. Im just pure stupid. 

Byee
Music [Sing (not even good at it)]

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Double ❤

Sup. :)

❤ with glasses o-o

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Erghhh. ❤ <---- Weird eh??
I know.

TO BOYS/MEN,

If you ever do think of going into a realtionship with a girl or a boy.

Remember to think through very very hard what you are getting

yourself into.

Just remember Okay??

TO GIRLS/WOMEN,

You don't always have to ask your boyfriend to spend time 

with you all the time right?

You still gotta give him some of his boy time.

Trust me about the boy time,

I've experience it before.

It ended pretty bad. 

July

Holy Bohony!!

It's JULY. 5 more months and guess what, I'll be home.

TO EUGENE,
I DO NOT LIKE ANYONE!!!

July, July. Come on get on to the holidays.
Chinese Night is coming. Hoo Hoo Hoo Weee Weeee. :))

Im am so like that.
Mama, you get what I mean.
Because I'm cool like that.
So you better get what I mean.

So how has everyone been??

I'm me just being me.

I miss you guys like so so so so much.

Hi AMEER!! :) Shoutout to you man!!

It doesn't matter.

Hi, people on earth.

If I told you I like this guy, but he likes another girl and she likes another boy who likes me. 
What should I do??

It's you and me running this town.

And it's you and me shaking the ground.

And ain't nobody telling us to go.

Cause this is our show.

^Hot Chelle Rae.

Go youtube them up. They sound amazing.

It doesn't matter that much to me anymore.

The things people do for other people. 

I just don't understand how people don't appreciate what other people do for them.

I was listening to Leehom. So nostalgic. :) I miss the old days. 

Bye, LOVE YOU XO

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Guess what. 


I'm turning 16 in 2 hours. Hmmm, I don't want anything special. Just wanna be able to spend time with you guys. :(


I want tomorrow to be as like every other day. Because in the 3 years. My Birthday is on a Friday, Saturday. Last year it was on a Sunday. 


Anyway, just wishing myself a Happy Birthday. :)

Happy Birthday Rachel Choy Saowquan. 

Your 16. Things will change. You'll see. So look up.

It's just the beginning. Smile. :)  I love you even if no one else does. 

Typical me

:) Happy Birthday girl :*

Bye, goodnight. Sweet dreams (:

Haha. Sorry for the 1 day wait.

Haha. Okay. So I met a guy. Yeah his my friend just friend but his taking me to the school ball.

Guys I still really miss you all.

Krystal and that Shaun guy is making me so jealous. I know they are annoying. But what to do they like a little love birds.

So yeah about the ball. I have no idea when it will be. But yeah I'm going with a guy who is 19. Haha yeah I know he older than me by like 3 years. But yeah is alright.

Question for you guys:
Who would you take to the ball of the ball was in SMK Kota Kemuning?

Please answer in the comment. :) and Lam Hor Kay. Thanks for the last two comments. It really helped. I love you!!

Successed!

Haha. Okay so today at lunchtime I was extremely quite. 


Reason:
1. I don't really wanna mix with them.
2. I got an assessment to study for.
3. They like me i think because of my iphone.


After school. It WAS TIME FOR ME TO SIT THE BUS. 
Man I was scared. Then I saw some people I know at the bus stop.


I was like
"Will you by any chance take the 42 bus to Albany"
She was like
"Yeeeaaah. Are you?
And then I was like
"Yeah." In my mind was like yayyerrr!!! Someone I know will be in the same bus with me. Wooohooo.


So we talked about school and exams. Talk about where she is staying.


The moment has ARRIVE.
The 42 Bus pulled up and everyone went for the bus. 
I was like wait up for me dude. (Okay I didn't really said dude)


I got onto the bus. The conductor was like which stage to the other students. I didn't know what stage i was so i just like took the 1st stage.


So i sat next to my friend, and we chatted. She laughed at me for being so nervous. Hell yeah I was nervous, it's my first time. I also laughed at myself. In the end I got home save and sound and WET. 


It was kinda like shallow the rain at first. Then suddenly so heavy, I walked so fast I almost tripped.


Now im kinda sick. Yeah so.

I was drenched in sweat and rain. Ewww. Haha 

I wasn't happy atm. 

3rd Week of school.

I am definite not having as much fun as I was having in SMK Kota Kemuning.
The reason being:


1. No guys
2. I don't really have friends. I mean I do have some. But I don't know I just don't feel right with them.
3. I really miss you guys a lot.

I do have assessment this week and the following week. My physics so far so good. Now I have Computing, and english (Creative Writing).

I can't wait for December when i get to see my family and friends.

I want to tell you about my friend Krystal. 
Her name is Krystal Dang. She is basically the first person i met in school. At first yeah she alright, (I hope she will never read this.) If you wanna know how she looks like just go find her in my friends.
So i know I'm funny. But sometimes not funny right. The thing is that she laughs at everything I say, do, eat, stand, walk, etc etc... Blabla.


Sometimes i just cant stand it erghhh. So I know how you guys feel when I'm annoying. I think I just met Rachel 2.0. This guy Shaun Lim, who likes her (Krystal). Tells her everything, even when i ask him not too. When i tease Krystal about Shaun, she blows up like a big red balloon and starts saying bloody this bloody that. 


I just really miss you guys a lot. 


This is just me smiling in school. Wanting school to get over so that i can rush back and hopefully see you guys online.


I LOVE YOU ALL!